How many times have we looked at something wistfully and thought, "oh i wish i had that". i was doing the very thing today, looking at some photos of my friends and thinking "how i wish i was there and doing the very same things". but then i just realised that i am so happy at the place i am in my life right now. i also know that i will get what i deserve, albeit it might take time. seldom do we all think like that. hell i would never think like that myself, not some 11 months ago. i think all of us should just realise that we should be happy with what we have and what we get. easier said than done i know, but not impossible. trust me, it makes life so much easier. now when i think a year back, i used to let every lil thing make me feel bad and the worst feeling of all was wishing for something that wasn't not mine. i am not saying i don't think that way now, i do, but in about ten minutes after feeling that way, i also feel, hell i am happy with what i have. there are so many people who might not have what i have. do you know it is so easy to think that way, but the biggest trouble is how long it takes us to think it. i feel very happy today, proud even that i am not letting things get to me, that i can turn it into something positive. i just wish all of us do that and make our lives easier and i hope after penning my thoughts down on this topic, the next time i feel the grass is greener on the other side, i immediately come to my senses and realise that my place i am in in my life is amazing too.
PS : My dear husband, Sudarshan chitappa and my mother in law. Thanks for helping me out so much and teaching me such wonderful things.
Friday, March 12, 2010
Monday, March 8, 2010
The Wedding (contd)
D Day!!!
Boy what a day it was. Even today if you ask me the minute details of that day, i can’t tell you. It was like i was doped or something. I was sooooo zonked out. i had blanked out. There was this sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. I was getting married, moving out of my house, becoming a part of a new family and most of all, like Monica from F.R.I.E.N.D.S says “I was going to live with a boy!!” I couldn’t focus. I just put all my energy and thoughts into looking good because it was the only area my mind would allow me to concentrate on.
I have to mention “The Gang”. They were just great. They were they from 7 am till the end. They are simply the best pals in the entire world. They came at 6.30, just to do my face. And who can forget the reception; my gals made me look like a dream. I couldn’t believe it when it was me when i looked in the mirror!
Throughout the reception and the wedding, i was just blank. Blank and nervous. But when THE MOMENT arrived, the moment when that yellow thread would go around my neck. My heart started doing the “dubdubdubdudb” thingy again. That’s when i woke up. Man the panic, “that throat closing, you can’t breathe feeling”. Tears were threatening to fall. I just mutely followed the directions of the “vadhiyar” and before you know it, the thread was around my neck. The moment it went around my neck, the whole world seemed to stop functioning. It seemed like everything around me was slowing down to freeze. It was just me and him. And that’s when i felt it – that unmistakeable unshakeable feeling that THIS IS IT, THIS IS THE ONE!!! The moment i had been waiting for, it felt so right!!!! At that second i knew, all would be well, in fact it would be heaven. Trust me guys, since then, till date it has been heaven. It might sound clichéd, even unbelievable maybe but it’s been a wonderful seven months. Some days we do work hard to make things work but hell that’s to be expected, right??? I couldn’t have asked for anyone better to spend my life with. I couldn’t have asked for a sweeter and welcoming family. Finally in my long life of 23 years (;) ;) ) i am at a happy place. :D :D :D :D
Boy what a day it was. Even today if you ask me the minute details of that day, i can’t tell you. It was like i was doped or something. I was sooooo zonked out. i had blanked out. There was this sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. I was getting married, moving out of my house, becoming a part of a new family and most of all, like Monica from F.R.I.E.N.D.S says “I was going to live with a boy!!” I couldn’t focus. I just put all my energy and thoughts into looking good because it was the only area my mind would allow me to concentrate on.
I have to mention “The Gang”. They were just great. They were they from 7 am till the end. They are simply the best pals in the entire world. They came at 6.30, just to do my face. And who can forget the reception; my gals made me look like a dream. I couldn’t believe it when it was me when i looked in the mirror!
Throughout the reception and the wedding, i was just blank. Blank and nervous. But when THE MOMENT arrived, the moment when that yellow thread would go around my neck. My heart started doing the “dubdubdubdudb” thingy again. That’s when i woke up. Man the panic, “that throat closing, you can’t breathe feeling”. Tears were threatening to fall. I just mutely followed the directions of the “vadhiyar” and before you know it, the thread was around my neck. The moment it went around my neck, the whole world seemed to stop functioning. It seemed like everything around me was slowing down to freeze. It was just me and him. And that’s when i felt it – that unmistakeable unshakeable feeling that THIS IS IT, THIS IS THE ONE!!! The moment i had been waiting for, it felt so right!!!! At that second i knew, all would be well, in fact it would be heaven. Trust me guys, since then, till date it has been heaven. It might sound clichéd, even unbelievable maybe but it’s been a wonderful seven months. Some days we do work hard to make things work but hell that’s to be expected, right??? I couldn’t have asked for anyone better to spend my life with. I couldn’t have asked for a sweeter and welcoming family. Finally in my long life of 23 years (;) ;) ) i am at a happy place. :D :D :D :D
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